The Unabridged Version of a Rational Emotional Mind

It has been roughly four years since I have been a legal adult. But, even now, nothing has ever made me feel like one. It is not like I don’t have adult responsibilities or make adult choices; it is more like even when I do such things I always feel like a kid placed in an adult world, attempting to act like one. I cannot count the number of times I have done something super adult-ish, and the kid inside me starts to scream, “Did you really do that!?” Growing up has always been a game of trial and error, and in my case, I really don’t know if I have leveled up yet. Sure my body tells me that there is nothing more to grow, but my little mind is still stuck in her school days. I always thought my love for learning was its own means to an end. But now I know, being a student is just my way to slow down the process of growing up as much as I can. Sure, the responsibilities keep building up, but there is always room for error. I cannot explain how much becoming an employed person petr...

Have you ever noticed that some people can do the absolute bare minimum for you and possess all of your heart? While there are others who can bring the whole world to your knees and you still won’t be as impressed? One ‘hello’ from exhibit A will send you flying into the abyss of bliss, while a long anthology of affection from exhibit B will only get a mere ‘meh’ from you. Alternatively, there must also be people who can put you into a flaming rage by just breathing. And then there are some who can drag you into the pit of fire themselves and you still won’t get angry with them.   Is it just me? Or do you also have people that you treat differently based on how you ‘think’ they make you feel? Well for me, I came to a realization this morning that it never was about the person on the other end. It was about the power I chose to give them over me. How we react to the actions of others is not a reflection of them as people, but a display of the power that we choose to give t...