The Unabridged Version of a Rational Emotional Mind

I feel like a visitor in this home now This castle of dreams that we built With future wishes and present memories With promises that we couldn't keep   I thought I could stay un-named Near the fire we are now trying to build From the embers of the love that were forced to die down By winds of change we could never predict   I tried and tried hard To unlearn habits I had come to love Relearn new patterns to survive Outside the shadow of your presence Away from the guilt of the pain   It is harder than I thought Relying on myself again Having learnt to navigate through life Together as one   But now I know I have to If I have any shot at redemption From this pain I am feeling This ache in my chest   All this will be new Learning to live a life without you I pray I find the strength to carry through Knowing that you will be safe too   No matter where life takes us Know this always I have and will always love you ...

In the Netflix series ‘The Crown’ an interesting sub-plot that unfolds is the love story of Princess Margaret. Her love for her father, The King’s equerry Peter Townsend meets a lot of challenges which the couple overcome over the years only to face the final ‘no’ and part ways eventually. As they bid goodbye they vow to each other, never to love another person or marry in this lifetime. Years later, Princess Margaret receives a letter from Peter Townsend stating that he has now found someone that he wishes to marry and wants her permission to break the vow they took. Watching the episode, I began to wonder what Princess Margaret’s mental state would have been after reading this letter from the man she loved dearly, finally finding the happiness they wished for together, but with someone else. And here is me, eternally obsessed with the series now, trying to pen down what her thoughts might have been like – about love and eternal bliss. When I was younger I thought love was t...

I recently started watching the series 'The Crown' based on the reign of Queen Elizabeth II. In one of the episodes, The Queen and her husband Prince Philip contemplate on how to make their marriage work since they can not effectively ever have a formal divorce. The gripping episode made me rethink of how relationships are broken not at the snap of a moment. But the tension builds over  a matter of days, months and even years, till the breaking point. I took this thought and tried to write an imaginary letter that an estranged wife writes to her husband, months before she finally decides to part ways. I have titled the piece, 'Moments before the Last Good Bye' and here it goes... I am trying to recall the reasons why I agreed to be with you. I think, back then I was quite afraid to be lonely. In you, I saw a fair deal of a challenge. But today, I have come to realise that being married to someone requires a lot of compromise and emotional patience. And I don’t think I h...